In my dreams i shall still rule ….
Posted on 26th August 2006 by TaggyIt was 6 in the evening and the clouds had started dangling over my head , i had stayed around in the campus for i had assignments to copy and the electricity failure added to the feel. It was getting cold , breezy and dark.
As i reached in home after some 30min stint in the rain with my classmates i sat down near my window and i was thinking about myself. Where have i moved in from what i was ? .
I actually found this small card less than 2cms square that rupika gave me when i met her :) . I thought i had lost it long ago in bangalore i saw it was safely wrapped in my kercheif that i had forgotten.
Strange sometimes small gestures go a long way.I do have huge cards gifted by my friends but somehow this small little card seemed larger to me .One because the person who gave it away had come out as a very good friend :) . and next i like it small .
I was looking through the old LDTP. Codes that i had written over in the summer at NOVELL .
I was sitting down to write something in my rough and instead i opened up my HP laptop to scribble something in emacs ;) . It was exactly then that somethings struck me .I had changed , i was no more the small town boy , I had come a long way , a path i never intended to take on.I lazily brazed through those old pictures of me holding on to my paati`s fingers in our tiny little vegetable garden we had in our village home or eating away the afternoon trying to listen to the stories my paati would tell us while we slept around in my amma`s lap.So many years later none of those exist . Not the tiny garden which has now been replaced by a newly built house by my uncle, not my grandmother for she passed away a few years ago ,Not even the tiny little boy.
I keep saying i have come a long way , a long way only in the fear if i havecome the other way !. For today not just me our whole generation has gotten far away from the old lifestyle. My brother an IIT grad was the first ever to study in a big institution .I still remember the pride on my father`s face when he received his degree passing by the corridors of what we always thought opne of the greatest institutions , atleast an institution that thought small town boys to dream of things not money , not family could buy them .Dreams that can be realised only with a mind and soul tahts your own . Yes when he graduated from iitb he landed himslef in to a plum job a job that gave him more 10 LPA .A figure no one ever heard of before and while everyone thought this was it , he left the job and chose to turn Entrepreuners with their startup Beans & Intellect
Everyone was surprised , but my father had realised by then babu had grown up a long way from what he thought babu was.To actually have the courage to build on a startup .A territory unknown for any of us spoke of his confidence and vision that actually surpassed the typical middle class attitude. And then he had on the other side.
I grew up as someone usually called in by “lazy intelligence”someone who would study very little and score in marks that were high enough.Given the fact i never put myself below rank 3 at school all through 12 years of scholling. I pushed through IIT and the whole family rejoiced then again ,it was a dream for them but a oppurtunity to study aerospace didnt seem attractive and chose not to end up at iitb seemed foolish enough decision but i wanted to make this one. i took in CS at NIT ,Trichy and here in i realised if you got the talent brand really is not a hindrance.
I moved in to become a geek .Spending nights in the sun lab learning things that are not even remotely connected to my studies at college.Things that less that .1% of people in my college would appreciate or understand but i still loved it.Python ,C ,Bash became the words i would speak all day and firefox is all i knew . Windows would stink so much so i dont remeber the last time i logged in to a windows computer .Given a fact i have never installed the windows in my computer or even the llaptop. And the concept of free software and opensource interested me.I thought of free or OS music . And slowly in i moved away from myself.
Today we are rich , rich in more ways then one.I get a monthly pocket money of more than 5k from my father add to it the AC travel allowances.And i never bothered to visit my village for many years now.I havent bought my mother a gift all these years .My mother still preserves the first and the only gift i ever gave her a pair of bangles i got to touch in hyderabad.Those were shiny and full of colour and i gave it to my mom.She never wore it ,but i know she still preserves it.
Today as this fresh rain is pickling out really old memories i want to hold on to my realself .There is just this one fear .If i have already let my original self go .May be iam just floating around with what happens each day in and out.
I remeber this old saying “A man travels all over the world in search of what he wants and returns home to find itâ€Â. Someday this man will find it too iam sure :) .
posted on August 28th 2006heyyyyy u hav the card i gave u…..oooohhhhh chooo chweeet of u……n am feelin really gr8 to own u as my friend er…..am feelin absltly happy….jus flyin in air…..u valued m kutttttiiiii card so much????thnxxxxxxxx a lot….same to u same to u same to u same to u…i kno u wud undrstnd this….heheheheeee
posted on August 28th 2006yeah i actually found it in the kercheif i once bought in bangalore ;) forgot to use it tho jus found the card wrapped guess what i even have the pink little envelope it was given with :P
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